I had all these ideas of how this time it was going to be “different”. How this time I wasn’t going to fail like I had in the past. So, I made a decision to let myself off the hook, no more judgments. Perfection is not holding myself to an unattainable standard, it’s accepting the me for me. It’s about the imperfections and the jaded perspectives. It’s about doing things no other way than my way with the understanding of a power greater than myself, directing and guiding me through the mist. Feeling the power of that intangible source run through me and knowing that it is the root of my compassion, enabling me to practice being selfless, teaching me how to love and being there when there is no one else.
I wanted to document this journey from ground zero to beyond. My awareness has been dampened by the need to have “the perfect” first entry when really this is all that it is. The alpha and the omega, from here all things are possible. From here – the wheels have been set into motion, there is no stopping it now. I am focusing on practicing self-care, getting a ritual going and reading to my hearts’ content and lastly, I have been meditating. Often times, falling asleep during the meditation but none the less doing it.
Best,
AMO
ashleyott 