Soul Compass

I had all these ideas of how this time it was going to be “different”. How this time I wasn’t going to fail like I had in the past. So, I made a decision to let myself off the hook, no more judgments. Perfection is not holding myself to an unattainable standard, it’s accepting the me for me. It’s about the imperfections and the jaded perspectives. It’s about doing things no other way than my way with the understanding of a power greater than myself, directing and guiding me through the mist. Feeling the power of that intangible source run through me and knowing that it is the root of my compassion, enabling me to practice being selfless, teaching me how to love and being there when there is no one else.

I wanted to document this journey from ground zero to beyond. My awareness has been dampened by the need to have “the perfect” first entry when really this is all that it is. The alpha and the omega, from here all things are possible. From here – the wheels have been set into motion, there is no stopping it now. I am focusing on practicing self-care, getting a ritual going and reading to my hearts’ content and lastly, I have been meditating. Often times, falling asleep during the meditation but none the less doing it.

 

Best,

AMO

Acceptance

I’ve been working on myself lately and one of the issues that keeps coming up with me is this idea of acceptance. I’m learning that there is so much power in the act of simply accepting myself just the way I am. Why I want to talk about this issue is because I think it is important when interacting with other people, with relationships with other people and most importantly with our relationship with our self. It has taken me many years to understand concepts that are now being taught to children in elementary school, I mean basic social skills. When I was young, research wasn’t being done on bullying. When I was young people didn’t understand mental illness like they do today. Being bullied doesn’t build thick skins, in fact, often times it thins our skins out. I am happy to see that now there are resources available for people suffering from these things, though that doesn’t mean that the problem doesn’t persist and it doesn’t mean that we can now wipe our hands of these people.

Acceptance for me looks like being my own friend, taking a liking to who I am regardless of the flaws in my nature. It takes practice to approve of myself enough to not let others get to me and not too much to where I put people off or act as though I am better then someone. Acceptance of myself is gained through helping others and loving others just the way they are. In the process I develop compassion and understanding. I am able to grow and learn, seeing from another persons perspective.  I will never know what it is truly like to be a man, or what it is like to be Native and so on and so forth. Not in this life at least. I guess what I want to say is that I find myself in others and through human connection I learn to love myself and that’s all that I really need at the end of the day; love.

Let me know what you think!